aiman.gugu.

this is it.

2012-01-12T04:15:00.000-08:00

mereka ini kanak2 ribena. n mereka wish gdluck to all GEN5 for our final exam sem1:)

kwn2. slmt brjuang dan selamat hadapi peperiksaan. terima kasih atas segala ilmu yg dikongsi terutama ahli2 studi grup sy emang,nudin,ayin,sofwa n syerrr..sy hutang korang sgt byk. iA jumpe sem dpn!

oh. sy dpt hadiah nk dekat2 exam ni. peneman sy stiap kali sdg brjihad lwn mata yg mengantuk tyme hadap buku :)

hepi for ANI. cant wait for ur big day!

semoga Allah permudahkan urusan kita semua! insyaAllah!

pies:
-mls nk menaip,maaflaa.
-doakan sy utk exam kali ini! jumpe lg lps 2mggu iA!
-alfatihah buat kakak ayatullah yg baru menghembuskan nafas terakhirnya td.daripada Dia kita datang,kepada Dia jua kita kembali.

7 Jan,2012

2012-01-07T03:55:00.000-08:00

salam.

it is 7 Jan,2012. and this is my first post for this new year. O Allah,thank you for the great 2011. currently in hostel,having no choice during this sem study week, have to stay at hostel. repeat,have to..despite rumah 5minutes away from hostel. oh my,,,,

mama and aimi currently at Turki,enjoying their new year holiday there and abah lari bawak diri to penang as flight to jakarta is fully booked. takpaham jugak kenapa macam tu..oh man, its turki..sape yg taknak pegi having a beautiful holiday with beloved family,,,wehooooooouuu derita btol tgk gamba mereka disana....

oh its been a month viva injured, have to do some plastic surgery for it..well, be thankful masih bernyawa till today. dapat naek bas hari2,rasa mcm zmn mude dolu2 masuk 1st year kejar bas hari2. osem! pe khabar viva kt workshop tu...haih

people,,pelis paham study week ni tensi nye cmne...takyah cakap study week,even before study week pon everybody sgt sensitif, trsalah usik cket ouch! merajuk laa pulak..so the best thing to do is awak jg hati awak,saya jaga hati saya..senang cte..dan jgnlaa pulak nak induced or provoke org laen..lpas tu ckp, 'hati dy je kene jaga, hati saya cmne...' dah yg awk gatal tgn g usik dye sape suro...haih manusia ni,takkan nk kene ckp bhs urdu baru paham,,,,

tired of studying,,baca tak banyak mana, tepu je lebih..
org laen lg study non-stop..kte pnat cket tdo..so ape kate kte memotivatekn diri ni, dan org laen..

pnatnye studi...
bnyknye kene bc tp tak sume masuk..
byknye.....otak da tepu
kapasiti otak tak cukup,,bla bla blaaaa,,,
tak semangat laa nk bc bku result quiz truk.....

nak cite,ade yg tyme2 ni rase down sgt...dpt rslt quiz patho sgt sdey. sy pon truk jugak result. but again, it depends on how you yourself received the rsult planned by Him..redha ke...? salahkan Allah?org lain?atau dri sndri...

nak dijadikan cerita kte manusia ni.......

There's a hole in our heart that needs to be filled with good things. W need to be strong. We need to trust Him, for He has better plan for us. He knows better than we are.We need to be close to Him. We need to baca Al-Quran selalu :') *sy pon slalu trleka...

Actually, it all started from within yourself. If you think you can do it, then you can. If you think the other way around, then you'll get what you expected. PUT TRUST IN ALLAH, as He owns our heart, our mind and our soul. He knows better than we are. Tipulah kalau kita tak ada rasa sedih langsung kan bila2? I do feel sad sometimes.. Rasa down teramat, and at one point, you have to stop letting yourself drown in your sadness! Layan satu malam cukup lah, esok kena bangun happy and lupakan apa yang terjadi. Kalau susah pon, takpe. Things will get better in time. Trust yourself. Walaupun tak boleh, try sampai boleh! Surround yourself with positive people. Sedut segala perkara baik dalam diri tu! InsyaAllah, Allah akan tolong kita kalau kita betul2 nak. InsyaAllah :)

dlm grup FB gen5, sy suke ape yg dipost oleh Ammar..

Takpe result kte x bagus sgt, yg penting kite sungguh-sungguh, x ponteng kelas, x main byk, n x tidur "byk" (hihi) Kerana barakah, ketenangan, redha, barakah, dan SYURGA jauh lebih berharga berbanding result yg cemerlang dlm exam^^ (original copy)

There are many things in our life that are decided for us without our input or approval. The Muslims who understand that our life is a test of how we live and do the best with whatever we got and whatever situations we have been put in, they are fully content and happy with the circumstances, putting all their efforts and energies in making the best of their situations and making the correct Islamic decisions in those situations.

They know that their personal success is not dependent on circumstances but in doing their best in the given circumstances. If they find themselves in bad circumstances, they work hard to do better, and keep seeking Allah's help, mercy and bounty through Du’aa and Istikhaarah to go with their best of the efforts. but, the losers concentrate on their circumstances and on the things beyond their control. They neither seek Allah’s help, mercy and bounty, nor do they take the circumstances as given and work on performing the best they can in those given situations. They end up being unhappy, miserable complainers always complaining about what they do not have, rather than making the best of what they do have. They end up being the utter losers.

“One of the factors that indicate blessedness (Sa’aadah) of a person is his being pleased with Allah’s decision for him, while two of the attitudes indicating wretchedness / despondence (Shaqaawah) of a person are: his not seeking goodness from Allah Subhaanahu wa Ta`aala or his being unhappy about Allah’s decisions for him.” (Sa’ad in Musnad of Ahmad and Jaami’ of At-Tirmidzee)

Whoever relies on Allah (has Tawakkul), He is sufficient for him (At-Talaaq 65:3).

Wallahualam.

:)

2011-12-27T01:53:00.000-08:00

salam,

Dr NA: foods can also trigger asthma..example?
gu: *dgn smangat brkobar2 sbb tahu jwpn msti btol. seafood!
Dr NA: not only siput. but seafood.
gu: =,= sbr jelaaaaaa sy..

. . . . .

A: npe pki armsock?
G: emmmmmmm,,,,

G: sshkn jd baik,,xprnh istiqamah..
P: xpe,slow2,,xkejar ape2 pon..biar org ckp hipokrit,kdg2 hipokrit ni lama2 bole develop rs ikhlas...
G: btol jugk...

. . . . .

anak perempuan: kwn2 sume da rmi kawen...
papa: papa tak pernah jnjikn suami yg soleh utk awk,tp papa da berusaha didik awk jd wanita solehah..prcye jnji Allah,lelaki yg baik utk perempuan yg baik..cuma jgn pernah tutup pintu hati tu...
anak perempuan: terima kasih papa *smbil peluk papanya dan menitiskan air mata

*prcaya akan jnji Allah!

. . . . .

esok>tuto microbes
kames>tuto frmako n patho
jumaat>presentation akidah n PBL
next isnin>thn baru
16 jan> da stat final exam.......

ade sesape nk gnti saya sila angkat ibu jari kaki anda...........huuuuuuueeee

sajenaktaipkatbawahnijugakdengantulisankecik2supayasumerasamcmnkbchihi:
>twins of faith sgt awesome! sume ptt amek pluang pegi len kali!
>nk update psl wedding zu+abg long xde ms!!! huh

>tlg ktuk pale sy sbb masih smpt update blog pdhal kt ats da merungut exam nk dekat!

sweetest day!

2011-12-23T03:58:00.000-08:00

salam awesome readers! :)

so,why today is sweetest day?
1st because im sweet (ehemmm,pls bare wif me heee),
2nd i hv a looooooottttt of sweet frens,
3rd i love sweet things,
4th my sweet frens love to give me sweet things. haha

from zwen to all of us with the greatest love ever!

with beloved zwen :)

have this for dinner with tasniim,syera n ayien :)

word of the day: say it best when u say nothing at all...awwwww~ :)

pies:
>cant wait for tomorrow! its zuhairah's big day! *nervous
>counting down for final exam.
>the greatest battle is when you are against yourself. be strong iman! tak susah pon utk berubah jd lebih baik.

just read.

2011-12-15T07:49:00.000-08:00

salam :)

at last,,my beloved 'kakak' @ batchmate is getting married. tak sabar rasenye nak dpt 'abg long'. hihi welcome to the family big bro! *ke cam pelik sebut camni? :)

lagi syiok kalau bole sebut skrip yg sama kt the true abg ipar,,cptla cptlaaaa...huuuu

dan lebih teruja sbb 1st tyme dpt wedding invitation ade nama sndri. kalau tak mesti tergolong dlm kategori dan keluarga or sekeluarga. haih seronok!

dan pastinye bile da ade yg stat 'engine' ni,,ramai la jugak pengikutnye kt blkg lps ni..dah jodoh,takpe kawen awal ni,bole elak fitnah.tu yg baeknye :)

kalau ade yg gatal nak tanya sy ble,jwpn nye still sama..insyaAllah. bak kata besday girl harini,jangan doakan cepat dapat jodoh,tapi doakan dapat yang soleh,,ameeeeeeen..:)

. . . . .

final exam bout less than a month. da nampak dari dulu byang2 timbunan buku yg perlu dibaca,5 subjek core semuanye. akibat jadi tikus putih oleh ketiadaan mdsem tahun ni, jadi trpaksa perah kudrat sikit utk final exam kali ni. Ya Allah,berilah kami kekuatan untuk hadapi semua ini Ya Allah..

still aktiviti tyme lect ble da tak bole concentrate ialah bg 'surat cinta' dgn org dpn.huhu

. . . . .

dan setelah sekian lama saya hanya mengalami accident dgn pagar rumah,kali ini viva kesayangan trpaksa dihantar utk plastik sugery,atau lebih parah botox supaya kembali kpd keadaan asal. dan saya da serik accident kerana trpaksa brhadapan dgn polis msia dgn kata2 angkuh; saya polis,saya tahu kerja saya,awak jangan banyak mulut!

huh! tobat!

sedih! T.T

nota hujung jari kaki:
>ain adnan;kwn skola rndah pon nak kawen ahad ni,mabruk!
>saya nak pegi turki jugak! nak ikot!
>tlg jgn pandang sy mcm tgk hantu sbb sy gelap,plis! heh

terasa nak meluahkan ketidakpuasan hati.

2011-11-30T04:12:00.000-08:00

prinsip hidup saya mudah.pertama;diri sendiri buat salah,jangan rasa berat nak ucap kata maaf.ucapan maaf bukan bermakna ego diri tercalar,tapi lebih kepada menggambarkan diri sendiri sedar dan tahu bahawa semua orang buat salah,diri anda buat salah dan tiada siapa yang sempurna dimuka bumi milik Dia ini.kedua;walaupon orang tu,pada mulanya saya amat hormati,sangat2 saya hormati..tapi sekali dia buat saya rasa hilang hormat terhadapnya,,maaflah.

kalau setakat hendak menunjukkan belang konon2nya diri hero dengan bersikap 'protective' terhadap pasangan anda yang belum pon sah disisi agamaNya,dengan menghantar sistem pesanan ringkas terhadap orang lain dan menuduh semberono tanpa usul periksa,,kemudian di alam realiti menunjuk2 bahawa saya lah hero dan saya lah paling benar dan orang lain salah...tuuuiiiihhhh! pada saya orang macam ni lah sesuai digelar muka tembok paling tebal dalam dunia yang langsung tak bertamadun.sama2 lah kita ingat,kalau kau rasa 'dia' ada 'kau',kau jangan lupa aku yang teraniaya ini punya Dia.

oh.lagi satu. saya paling pelik orang yang begitu gah dan yakin menyebut pasal hak bla bla bla bla dosa bla bla bla bla tapi ketika dia sedang sibuk mengutarakan kesemua perkara tersebut,dia sedang melakukan dosa dan mencabuli hak orang lain.macam nak pegi dekat2 dan beritahu "pls,talk to my hand,i'm begging you oh my".

hukum alam ni senang,rasanya semua orang pernah dengar kan..buat baik berpada2,buat jahat jangan sekali. buat baik akan dibalas baik,buat jahat akan dibalas jahat.alaaaaa,remeh kan. sebab belum kene kat batang hidung sendiri. sama2 beringat laa kawan. Dia Maha Adil.

sejak dua menjak ni,hati rasa sakit,mata makin menyampah tengok benda2 yang kalau boleh nak get rid cepat2,tangan rasa ringan nak menampar orang. tapi diri cuba ditenangkan juga. nasib ada bola tampar sebagai penyelamat,boleh lah nak membayangkan apa yang patut ketika menampar bola. tak gitu? cuma haruslah buat pengorbanan terhadap nota2 yang diamanahkan,dari tulisan tangan ke 'tulisan' komputer.harap faham lah ye kawan2,jari jemari dan tangan makin membengkak untuk 2minggu ni.

ps:sori,terlebih emo pulak harini. peace no war~

malas

2011-11-18T23:49:00.000-08:00

salam. bermalas-malasan di hari sabtu yang indah dengan angin sepoi2 bahasa. bukak mata di pagi hari,kelihatan awan biru yang sangat cantik. *bgn lewat. selalunya awan masih gelap. kerja dalam waiting list tak pernah selesai..tapi pedulikan mereka. penat badan seminggu belum hilang..baru seminggu,rasa macam dah sebulan penat dan kerja menimbun lepas bukak cuti haritu..haih. nekad. esok baru mula memaksa otak bekerja semula. yoshhhh!

ps: -rumah kosong. bosan amat.
-tak sabar nak sarung jubah coklat ade jalur2 emas lagi 4 tahun :)

cinta mukabuku by najwa latiff? bukan...cinta buku by gugu. hehe :)

2011-11-11T04:48:00.000-08:00

iman: ma,hari ni A n B da kawen. diorg tu bgs sgt.
mama: pe yg bgs?
iman: yelaaa...brcinta takde sape taw,tunang pon tak taw..tup tup da kawen. tak mcm C n D,bkn main tunang 1 dunia taw,bercinta tak payah cakap laaa..meletop. tak macam tunang,macam da kawen je tgk ke hulu ke hilir same2...tapi kawen lambat lagi.
mama: btol laaaa,tunang tak kecoh2. bercinta bagai nak rak asyik berkepit tp nanti tak jadi kawen lagi parah.
iman: btol btol.
mama: iman bercinta tak?
iman: huh?
mama: yelaaaa...mana taw iman pon bercinta mama tak taw.
iman: ke situ pulak.......
mama: mama tanya je...
iman: bercinta laaaaa.....dengan buku mama. tapi yg ni semua orang taw. orang semua doakan lagi supaya ktorg 'nikah'.
mama: ha?ble?
iman: hari grad nanti. insyaAllah he he
mama: *dlm hati sbr jelaaaaaaa

nota kaki:
1.btw,iman tu sy ye..bkn jiran sblh sbb ade org penah tnye iman tu spe...sengal btol..
2.tak payah tunang laaa senang,tunang setengah jam before nikah pon oke pe kn...
3.arghhhhhhh lg 2 hari je kene mengulangi jadual kehidupan ituuuuuuuuu...

Update-Whisked.

2011-11-08T20:24:00.000-08:00

I've abandoned this blog for far too long. Seems to me like inspiration strikes only when I'm at my lowest. Which is GOOD in a way I suppose! Just goes to show that I've been considerably happy?

I don't quite know where to begin. More often than not, I find myself between a rock and a hard place. I spend every waking moment beating my brains out, figuring out how to cut myself loose from this vicious cycle. I feel like I've tried every single approach only to find myself back to where I started, if not worse.

What is it?

What is this thing that's putting a squeeze on everything I do?

It exasperates me to think that with every try, the distance between me and this very thing I'm trying to achieve is becoming wider until eventually it consigns itself to oblivion. I'm not talking about medicine or anything in relation to it, don't worry. I know what I aspire to be. Its just the personage behind that very aspiration is the one I'm struggling to connect with.

I have little friends. I used to complain about it. And people denied it. I think I would know more about it than you would. I associate myself with people who really care about me - the kind who will cry for me, the kind who will laugh with me, the kind who will do the 'hallelujah dance' with me, the kind whom I know will love me no matter what. Its hard to find that, it really is. And I thank my lucky stars I've found them. Blame circumstances for not letting us be together for more and a few days a year. Pity.

Social situations unnerve me. I hardly let anyone in. I've experienced hurt too much, walls go up in reflex to interaction with people I'm not accustomed to. My eyes grow heavy, your voice crackles in my ear, and I exercise my brain in effort to string together words to come up with a barely coherent reply. I hardly think its nonchalance, but its definitely not the nerves. Often, I jump ahead far... Maybe a bit too far. I sum you up, who you are, what you want and ultimately what you think of me. If the equation adds up to 'he/she isn't the real deal' I'll try my best to appear engaged when all I want to do is look stoic and disappear. I do this quite a lot. More than you think. I want to feel sorry, honest to God I do. But I just don't. What I've learned after being thrown into the real world is that I shouldn't give even as much as thought to people who do not matter. Time to take off the rose-colored glasses and see things as they are and treat them as they are.

Someone once told me that she didn't quite know what the secret to success is but she knew for a fact that the secret to failure is trying to please everyone. You'll never make it across the meadow without trampling over a few daisies. True. Spread yourself thin and you'll only end up lost.

Sounds just about right doesn't it?

Then why do I find myself still in between two worlds? One foot in each. Neither wanting to be there.

I have this burning desire to escape reality.

But I don't quite know how.

ps: pharmacology notes.*sigh **I might complain at times especially about having to study and memorize procedures, but heck that's what med school is about anyway. :)

terasa sangat seronok nak cuti sampai tak tahu nak letak entry tajuk ape :)

2011-10-28T15:55:00.000-07:00

salam. *mood gembira jap lagi nak balik rumah.

smlm lpas kls tgahari, trus ke kl sentral setelah ayien merayu2 wt muka comel ajak pegi ekspo buku islam. dh lama tak naek tren. LRT,monorail..redah jelaaa..kalau kt big bad wolf book sale beli 10 buku, smlm beli 2 buku. cukuplaaa kn.12 total tu..spe nk bc..huhu

yg bwh skali tu kene WAJIB abeskn cuti ni :)

cuti ni da decide,,nak spent bersama family trcinta. pastu sekurang2 nye abeskan 3 buah buku drpd 12 buku yg timbun2 tu..skali dengan pharmaco and parasites..huh!

5 buah buku yg di bw blik untuk dibaca. berusaha!

sume rumah jauh2..sy jelaa rumah yg sekangkang semut ni..10 minit da smpi..hari ni balik nk sambut besday 'baby' boy kt rumah yg the only and only one tu..moga2 dapat jd engineer yg bjaya amiiiinnnnn.....

ps: cuti jgn pulak bercuti bc love letters from Him ye semua! insyaAllah!

SELAMAT BERCUTI KAWAN-KAWAN. JUMPA LAGI 2 MINGGU :)

dijat nk sgt ambik gmbr dgn 'gold man' yg agk mengerikan

dear diary

2011-10-25T02:26:00.000-07:00

Done with the parasites seminar. Take a deep breath. U have patho quiz on your next list gu. But the long-waiting-holiday have been calling like 2-3 weeks before.

Tired of all those long-lectures and notes to be done where all of them are just like a lullaby, I can just dozed off even its just bout 2 minutes ago I’d drink a cup of caffeine(read: coffee).

Tired with all those academic-thingy the whole week, along with the ongoing trip stuffs that makes u suffocated, sometimes…people around u can actually help to loosen up and makes u happy, at least at that time. People who is willing (always) to lend their shoulder, or always be there for u to at least to hug you which I really prefer when I feel like crying-out-loud, is the one that u can always seek for help or to share your happiness:)

When kak ummu told me that she always cried during her time as a deputy representative for her class,,I just hope that I won’t. And I told myself, don’t cry! But I just can’t help myself.

I know that I have them,and they know that they have me like always.

tired? u have Him. He's there for you. You have to know,and you should know.go and find Him.always!
-from someone called a friend.

little red reading hood.

2011-10-10T07:15:00.000-07:00

salam. hurm.

books books books.we went to big bad wolf bookfair(kot) at MAEPS,serdang.all the books there were like murah-amat-sangat-macam-nak-borong-semua-bawak-balik..one book rm3-rm10.

books n books.

normal price was like rm60 and above. so what are u really waiting for? borong 10 buke pon xpuas hati sebab tak habis dari hujung ke hujung. ppl were like crazy with the boxes,baskets and what not nak borong bawak balik.

these books belongs to gu,didi n tasnot.

those ppl beli buku macam after this no more bookstores exist in this whole wide world. wow!
end up saya pon angkut 10 buku dalam kotak. tu pon mule2 12 bijik sume. cut off yg mana kurang menarik,,so 10 books for rm77. mmg puas hati btol laaa..kalo g MPH,popular or kinokuniya mmg rm60+++ per book.

these are mine :)

so after this nk stat dgn which book eh? mama da bsing tw sy angkut byk2 buku..

buku patho ble nk bukak?
kata haritu farmako susah??
kene wt sinopsis bg mama baca for every each book ni..
hehe ai ai captain! :)

makcik ni suke genre r******. so typical didi. huhu

gu with all those books.

reading makes a man
-prof ainon.

ps: sori to emang n nudin sbab cancel study grup. really sori.
pss: mari ke UM esok!
psss: I got chocolates,he's getting married. happy for him :) doakan saya juga!

sum up.

2011-10-07T05:00:00.001-07:00

salam. ehem.

da dekat sebulan lebih(kot) masuk 3rd yr,sepanjang tu jugaklaa tak sempat2 nak update blog ni. *achewwww* byk btul habuk.

sigh. penat. betul laaa dga senior2 semua ckp 3rd yr sgt susah.pack.sekarang ni kalau pada saya personally,sengkang masa antara satu lecture dgn satu lecture yg laen even seminit pon sgt precious,sempat ke tak tetap tutup mata. tdo ke tak tu laen cte. self-study tak payah cakap.pejamkan mata anda.bila bgtaw kawan tahun ni ambik 5sbjek,diorg ckp sgt sikit. sgt sikit? trylaaa ambik.huhu *pdn muke gu,nk sgt ambik medic.hambek kau!

kalau lepas isya' stat hadap buku,pukul 10 da ngantok,tyme tulaaa cari housemate-yang-cool-and-havoc sblm cari mr coffee. kalo dulu bau kopi pon da pening,sekarang ni trpksa minum wlupon physiology badan tunggang langgang utk hari2 berikutnya.have to.

dulu setiap mggu balik,kalau tak hidup tak sempurna.sekarang mama pon paham kena balik 2mggu skali. tu pon tak tertanggung rndu. 2mggu kott! rndu gaduh dgn encik aimi setiap mggu.huuuu~

aimi: taw tak kak iman,kawan aimi kat mesir.dulu dia budak bese jek. sekarang dia ambik bachelor in medicine and bachelor in surgery.hebat kan hebat kan.kak iman amek bachelor in medicine je knn?
saya: =,=

*awak ni aimi,mmg innocent and masih suci. haih.

dulu da nak dekat exam barulaaa rasa tension.sekarang ni kadang2 setiap hari tertekan. tak cukup tidur pon tertekan. saat paling bahagia bila lepas beberapa hari tak cukup tidur and da next day awak dapat tdo 8jam,itulaaa saat paling bahagia.haha

saat2 macam ni,sabar sangat penting. dengan semua orang dan diri sendiri. susah nak rasa sabar dengan orang laen sebenarnye. bila kene deal dgn 56 orang yg lain utk 2 semester ni,perasaan cuba utk cuba memahami semua orang n kawal perasaan marah sebenarnya sangat payah nak develop. kadang2 kene pinjam sabar orang lain untuk diri sendiri.

menyesal ambek medic? bole tak nk quit? engine cm snang..jwpnnye:tak lah! tak sabar nk jadi dokter! berusaha!orang lain boleh,knapa saya tak boleh kn?

mama selalu pesan,jgn jadi dokter yg excellent dlm studi jek.tak gune.nk jadi dokter tak payah pandai.nanti orang tak tanye pon melainkan awak bgtaw semua orang.yg penting niat nk jadi dokter kene work hard.pandai;kalau per sepuluh tu awak dapat 2/3 pon takpe.kerja keras tuk jadi doktor yg bagus,bukan doktor yg pandai! doakan saya!

ps:sekarang ni asyik pkir cne nk cri duet lebih....huhu :D

curious?

2011-08-25T20:18:00.000-07:00

salam Ramadhan.

at the first place,,it wasn't me myself that realised my lymph nodes can be big enough which can be seen by people around me. My cousin was the person who told me that there's something on my right neck.Then only I realised bout it, and I told my mom..knowing my mom,when she palpated my neck,I know that there's something going on her head which can be seen through her expression,but she'll hold it.

kene buat biopsy ni...the first thing came out from her mouth.

when you are a medical student,nothing else can help you but you'll be so curious and eager to know what is biopsy. so i google it out..this happens bout 3 months ago.cant really remember.so this is what I understand from the word 'biopsy'.

biopsy involved the removal of tissues or cell for examination to see any precense of disease.it can be GIT biopsy,lung,liver etc etc including lymph node. example of conditions that can be identified are cancer and any inflammatory conditions. I was like oh! cancer..

the next few days...my mom said
ntah2 iman ade TB kot..

so I google it. slalu dengar but when somebody told u that u might have it,,i think everybody will automatically go around to find out bout it. the same goes to me..

I read on wiki and medscape bout TB. and if u guys google it too, its there bout mantoux test . so i read bout them in detail. but, i never told anybody everything that I hv read,how i feel bout it,what do I think bout it..including my mom till i told u guys yesterday on my previous post.

as time goes by..
Dr Lo' Lo' died because of lung and bone cancer (if I'm not mistaken), another fren of my mom died because of breast cancer and last two weeks another one died because of lung cancer..
my mom told me..iman jgn lupe anti-oxidant and supplement yg mama suruh mkn. skrg ni cancer xde ubat yang btul2 bole rawat dy unless u try to prevent it from now.

yesterday,when the nurse gave me the Mantoux test, she told me that bla bla bla blaaaa bla bla bout it. oh! the same as what I've read before..but I'm not satisfied. I want to hear anything or everything from my mom herself.so I kept asking her when we had a supper late at night after terawih yesterday.

Mantoux test yg iman kene cucuk td tu, nti dy akn react dgn ur body. so dkt tmpt kene cucuk tu, the palpable hardened area yg ade after 3 days will be measured. if it is +ve,,u might hv a tb,or any infections,or chronic internal inflammation or even cancer. phm? tp tuk lebih tw lg what are the disease,u have to do the biopsy. the tissue tu nanti kte tgk laa tb ke ape. so skarang ni..u have to take the antibiotic for a week,if ur lymph nodes tu mengecik,maybe its nothing really serious,if not ade something tak kene laaa kot. and it depends on your mantoux test tu jugak.

so dis is what I want to hear. I know that she really dont want to say anything related to cancer. and of course I didn't expect her to say something like..'iman nyer lymph node tu membesar ntah2 ade cancer...' knn?

so now, I 'm on an antibiotic to see if the lymph nodes can get smaller and disappear so iA its actually just a naughty big lymph nodes. hehe insyaAllah!

but I am confident that I am healthy and normal as I used to be and iA always pray for that. doa banyak2 utk dri sndri, everybody and million of thanks to all the readers and frens yg doakan saya. I'll pray for you too. :)

ps: maybe da ade yg stat blik kampung esok,slmt pulang ke kampung,hati2 di jln raya.

TB

2011-08-24T22:50:00.000-07:00

salam ramadhan!

its been a while since I last membebel here(in english). Alhamdulillah we are now in the last phase of ramadhan. Happy to spend the whole ramadhan wif beloved family after 6years in hostel. huh

I went to selayang hospital juz now to meet Dr Rohna,a skin speacialist. I've known her ever since I was 9 years old when I was first told that I have eczema. (dh lebih 10thn!). As usual, she just checked my skin's condition at the neck,upper and lower limb after 2 years since the last time I met her. So she's advised this and that. nk rye ni pstikan bwk ur ubat ke hulu ke hilir.mana tw suddenly u developed allergic of something kn. bla bla bla n blaaaaaaa...n suddenly she discovered something on my right side of neck. she pressed on them and said "why..em your lymph node so big? and u have two!

so the investigation begin................

so since when your lymph nodes..that big? she seemed really suprised
since last 2-3 months
oh. so what did your mom said?
emm,,she said that maybe I have to do biopsy (btul ke eja ni?)
lagi?
that...emmm,,maybe i had a TB.
so she did told u that?
yah.
so..u r a 2nd yr medical student right? I'm sure u didn't start ur clinical yr n not being exposed to any TB's patient. any of ur fren has TB? or maybe u ade buat community service kt mana2 kampung or pegi old folks home?
no.
awak ade batuk2,or demam..sakit tekak or anything?
no.
lost appetite?weight loss?
no.
I have to told your mom and ENT speacialist.

so she called the ENT clinic..

hello,can I speak to any ENT speacialist on duty?
speaking.(maybe)
Dr Rohna here from skin clinic. i have a patient here. noor aiman,Dr Arbayah's daughter. she's a 20 years old,2nd yr medical student. still in her precilinical yr. she had two lymph nodes for 2 months already on her right neck. side by side one is 2cm and another one is 1cm,they are painless,mobile. not on any medication. so what should I do?
.......

so aiman. u hv to do a blood test and Mantoux Tuberculin skin test. u might hv TB. we have to confirm it. no worries. doa byk2.
ok.thank you dr.

Mantoux Tuberculin Skin Test

the thing is............sy takut jarum!!!!! huuuuuuu~~ and yet I am a medic student. :(
till now, I still dont even now what is my blood's type.A?B?O?AB? why? becoz sy tak suke jarum! and the worst thing is my mom pon tak pasti sy ni jenis drh ape. haha

the blood test not that hurt. but the Mantoux test....wow! cket lagi nak nangis.sakit wo00000000~

notes:
+if anybody yg curious bout TB,just google it out..wiki or medscape or anything.
+to everyone yg bc dis post, do pray for me..supaya takde TB. the result will be on monday,iA a day before raya. moga Allah permudahkan segalanya.
+lets do the best for these last daysss of ramadhan.mari!

Sabah;perjalanan mengenalNya..perjalanan menghargai ciptaanNya.

2011-07-24T20:42:00.000-07:00

keinginan ke sabah menggunung tinggi lps bc novel Aa+Bb. pelik sangat knapa Addin nk sangat ajak inche Bez dy pegi honeymoon kt Karambunai...and bile unnie terchenta pgi sabah and post kt blog dy disini,,memang rasanyer kalo ade rezeki memang kene gi sabah ni. hehe

so macam bintang jatuh ke riba bile abah ajak 1 family gi sabah. tapi tak bestnyer sume orang tak free..jadi memang kami dating berdua jelaaa..

sampai2 je kat Terminal 2 KKIA,,sy pelik knapa mesti ade pass pelawat..dan pelawat hanya dibenarkan stay kat KK selama 90hari sahaja and tak lebih dari tu..pelik. Sabah bukan Malaysia ke sampaikan orang2 dari Semenanjung datang cam bukan ke negara sndri...dan rasanye orang2 dari Sabah datang ke semenanjung takde pass pelawat kan..jap,Sarawak pon camtu gak ke? musykil2...

sekejap senanyer stay kat KK (3hari 2malam)..cek in at Nexus Resort,Karambunai..and honestly mahal wo0o per night dy..so,ktorg decide even tak gi Kundasang pon (sedih!), kene spent all da time betul2 kat resort ni sebab facilities dye banyak and bagus2 cthnye horse riding,banana boat,lagoon park,shuttle to town, sports centre including gym and tennis,golf,spa dll except kebanyakannya mandi kolam and laut.huh matsalleh suke laa..

and before gi sabah da cek out kat blog zati(tq zt!),,tnye tim tim and google psl tmpt2 yg nearby kt karambunai ni..selain bandar KK,pasar Philipine pon saya singgah,masjid Likas..Kundasang tak sempat nak pegi sebab perjalanan dari Karambunai ke sana da dekat 3jam,tu pon kalau tau jalan..sewa kereta je da mahal cam nak pengsan kan..so next tyme laa mybe..

setiap selang sehari kat Nexus Resort ni,tyme dinner ade persembahan tarian tradisional..dye nak promote culture Malaysia esp yang ade kt Sabah sebab bole dikatakan masa sy pegi ni ktorg berdua jek org melayu as a tourist..yang laen sume dari jepun,korea,mat salleh ramai..jerman..macam2 r..and semua pekerja kat Nexus mesti pandai bertutur dalam BI baru bole kerja,,so memang berhabuk r cakap BI diorg ni sume..

bamboo dance

datang cni bnde yang paling saya tak sabar nak tengok adalah sunset and sunrise..da 1st day memang terlepas laa sebab bangun lewat and sampai lewat petang still kat town berjalan sampai lenguh kaki..so petang sabtu kul 4 lagi saya da trun g pantai semata2 nak main air and tggu sunset..ramai sgt orang..ade yg naik basikal,banana boat..mandi manda..abah keje dye pegi sports centre sama ada gym or tennis..bosan kan pegi brdua jek..huhu and saya lebih suka maen air,kejar ketam and ketam kejar saya. haha
da next morning,abah ajak gi tengok sunrise..padahal nak suro teman dye joging..huhu trpaksa bgun pkul 4 pg sbb subuh awal..lps tu dengan mamai2 pegi pantai..rupenyer ade gk org yg joging sambil tggu sunrise..subhanAllah! cntekk btul r sunrise and sunset kt KK ni..so next tyme kene dtg lg...iA.

sunrise

sunset

tp yg xbest nyer pegi Sabah kali ni..ade 1 je gmba sy..sebab inche mdnoor tu suke jadi model..tp tak suke amek gambar org laen. sedih kan..haha

ps:
jom plan g Sabah kwn2! hehe
nak tengok byk gmbr bole tgk kt blog zt :)
counting days to Ramadhan! tak sabarnye sbb da lama tak pose full kt rumah :DD
gdluck to all my seniors yg da stat HO today! ganbatte doc! ^^

abah v s mama

2011-07-16T21:06:00.000-07:00

abah saya bekas tentera;from TUDM. bole imagine tentera macam mana kan. disiplin,kalau laki kene tuck in.but he's not that strict. *tak dapat bayang adik saya tu kene tuck in all the time. knowing him as my abah makes me wanna marry a guy exactly like him. macam jadi kayu ukur. strict,humor,bole teman saya shoping (dia yang selalu ajak saya shoping.haha),bole ajak borak.tapi bole tak nak yang tinggi sikit? ^^ going out with him,berdua saja,all da way in the car..bole kata semua adalah nasihat yang keluar dari mulut dia. from A to Z. every single thing without fail. duduk hostel since i was REALLY small,,u cant even imagine how pendek I am..the time that i spent with him was like...tak ingat pon except bile cuti same2. most of the time kat hostel till now. saya kenal asam garam dunia ni kerana abah. kalau balik penang berdua je,on the road for 5hours to memang tak bole nak lelap saya ni. dengan lagu deep purple favourite dia,,saya tak tahu pon sampai habis skola..we can talk everything for da 5hours. semua. semua laa. saya teringat masa saya lepas PTS (sape ingat lagi exam masa darjah 3 yg bole lompat terus sampai darjah 5),,abah dukung saya and bole lambung saya tinggi2 sebab terlalu gembira.*tyme tu saya sangat ringan oke.haha tyme UPSR,PMR,SPM takyah cakaplaa,rasanya kalo saya masih kecik dan ringan kene dukung jugak kot. and he once hugged me tightly when i get into medic after tamhidi.i knew he cried inside because he was really happy.one word,thanks abah for everything. .iman sayang abah. sangat! :DD

mama.she's a doctor. she's the head of department of anaesthesiology in selayang hospital.nak senang pegi ICU selayang cari dr arbayah.haha i wanna be like her.from now onwards.dulu..tak nak. i wanna be an engineer. instead of DR, saya lebih mahukan IR..saya nak further in aircraft engine. bestnye! tapi tu dulu..kalo dengan my mum,everything is about medic.dunia doktor.everything.lain dengan abah. in the car,masa makan,tengah shoping,tengok tv.huhu pening jugak kadang2. and sekarang ni tengah hot pasal all the HO and medical students kt department,i know semua pasal diaorang.nama,grad dari mana,buat keje oke ke tak,selalu kene marah, i can list out nama sape yang selalu kene puji,kene kutuk..mama jenis yang cerita semua kat anak2 dia. yelaa,as a doctor ni stress kan.so,bile cerita ni mungkin lega sikit. so kalo ade agong ke, sultan,menteri2,ahi parlimen yang wat operation kat selayang yang all da people out there tak bole taw,ktorang kat rumah ni taw dulu. even rahsia dr sheikh muzaffar and dr halina pon kitorang tahu.thanks to mama.hehe but somehow tengok mama marah all da HOs makes me taknak grad! huuu scary kot..pernah orang tanya,mak kau keje oke? betul ke doctors have no life?anak2 tak terbiar ke? the answer is korang tengok ktorang ni terbiar ke..kalo doctors have no life,my mother has no life,tak taw pe jadi kat ktorang ni kot..but its not true righto? and we know,I know,,u've been struggling for your life for da past 2 years..we always pray for you.don't get stress,take care of your health. and I love you too mama. saranghaeyo~

i'm nobody without you two :)

notakakibusuk:
:) tak tahu kenapa mood tiong siket hari ni.sebab rasa cam nak nanges kot. huuuu~
:) sebenarnye nak tulis in melayu baku but i juz can't.
:) this week gonna be very busy,,setiap hari ade schedule..cerita dalam next post kot.pls anticipate.
:) selamat baca ganong mereka2 di GV! hihi
:) heading to sabah next morning!
:) can I have candy? ^^v

=,=

2011-07-11T08:56:00.000-07:00

“There comes a time when every man has to make a choice. Whether it’s a professional choice…Or whether it’s a personal choice. In the end, it’s about integrity. And it’s about chasing after what you really want. Even if that means showing you both care a little. And sometimes…well, sometimes you just have to do what’s right for your friend. Even if it means sacrificing your own happiness. When it comes down to it, you just have to be proud of the decision you make.”

ps: lama sgt da tak mengupdate blog ni.mls..=,=
pss: bru blik dr kem soleh smlm di bumi hamidiah,kajang dgn niat untuk mentarbiah dan ditarbiah. Alhamdulillah,,smoga Allah menilai usaha trsebut insyaAllah. teringat kata2 adik form2 " kak aiman,,couple tu haram. kn cinta Allah adlh cinta yg hakiki dan sejati,,knape akak nk cri cinta manusia? berikan dlu sepenuh cinta akak pd Allah....sy hanya mampu trsenyum..insyaAllah dik! terima kasih!

Mencintai dia dalam diam.......

2011-06-07T02:20:00.000-07:00

Ketika cinta kini hadir tidaklah untuk Yang Maha Mengetahui..

Saat secercah rasa tidak lagi tercipta untuk Yang Maha Pencipta..

Izinkanlah hati bertanya untuk siapa ia muncul dengan tiba-tiba..

Mungkinkah dengan redhaNYA atau hanya mengundang murkaNYA..

Jika benar cinta itu kerana ALLAH..

Maka biarkanlah ia mengalir mengikut aliran ALLAH..

Kerana hakikatnya..

Ia berhulu dari ALLAH..

Maka ia pun berhilir hanya kepada ALLAH..

"Dan segala sesuatu Kami ciptakan berpasang-pasangan supaya kamu mengingat kebesaran ALLAH."

~Surah Adz Dzariyat: Ayat 49~

"Dan kahwinkanlah orang-orang yang sendirian diantara kamu, dan orang-orang yang layak (berkahwin) dari hamba-hamba sahayamu yang lelaki dan hamba-hamba sahayamu yang perempuan. Jika mereka miskin ALLAH akan memampukan mereka dengan kurniaNYA."

~Surah An Nur: Ayat 32~

"Dan di antara tanda-tanda kekuasaanNYA ialah Dia menciptakan untukmu isteri-isteri dari jenismu sendiri, supaya kamu cenderung dan merasa tenteram kepadanya, dan dijadikanNYA di antaramu rasa kasih dan sayang. Sesungguhnya pada yang demikian itu benar-benar terdapat tanda-tanda bagi kaum yang berfikir."

~Surah Ar Ruum: Ayat 21~

Tetapi jika kelemahan masih nyata dipelupuk mata..

Maka bersabarlah..

Berdoalah..

Berpuasalah..

"Wahai kaum pemuda, siapa saja di antara kamu yang sudah sanggup untuk menikah, maka menikahlah, sesungguhnya menikah itu memelihara mata, dan memelihara kemaluan, maka bila di antara kamu belum sanggup untuk menikah.. berpuasalah, kerana sesungguhnya puasa tersebut sebagai penahannya."

~Hadis~

"Dan janganlah kamu mendekati zina.. Sesungguhnya zina itu adalah satu perbuatan yang keji. Dan suatu jalan yang buruk."

~Surah Al Israa': Ayat 32~

Cukup cintai dia dalam diam...

Bukan kerana membenci hadirnya.. tetapi menjaga kesuciannya..

Bukan kerana menghindari dunia.. tetapi meraih syurgaNYA..

Bukan kerana lemah untuk menghadapinya.. tetapi menguatkan jiwa dari godaan syaitan yang begitu halus dan menyelusup..

Cukup cintai dia dari kejauhan...

Kerana hadirmu tiada kan mampu menjauhkannya dari ujian..

Kerana hadirmu hanya akan menggoyahkan iman dan ketenangan..

Kerana mungkin sajakan membawa kelalaian hati-hati yang terjaga..

Cukup cintai dia dengan kesederhanaan...

Memupuknya hanya akan menambah penderitaan..

Menumbuhkan harapan hanya akan menyemai kebahagiaan para syaitan..

Maka cintailah dia dengan keikhlasan...

Kerana tentu kisah Fatimah dan Ali Bin Abi Talib diingini oleh hati..

Tetapi sanggupkah jika semua berakhir seperti sejarah cinta Salman Al Farisi..??

".. boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu. ALLAH mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui."

~Surah Al Baqarah: Ayat 216~

"Wanita-wanita yang keji adalah untuk lelaki-lelaki yang keji, dan lelaki-lelaki yang keji adalah buat wanita-wanita yang keji (pula), dan wanita-wanita yang baik adalah untuk lelaki-lelaki yang baik dan lelaki-lelaki yang baik adalah untuk wanita-wanita yang baik (pula). Mereka (yang dituduh) itu bersih dari apa yang dituduhkan oleh mereka (yang menuduh itu). Bagi mereka ampunan dan rezeki yang mulia (syurga)."

~Surah An Nuur: Ayat 26~

Cukup cintai dia dalam diam dari kejauhan dengan kesederhaan dan keikhlasan..

Kerana tiada yang tahu rencana Tuhan..

Mungkin saja rasa ini ujian yang akan melapuk atau membeku dengan perlahan..

Kerana hati ini begitu mudah untuk dibolak-balikkan..

Serahkan rasa yang tiada sanggup dijadikan halal itu pada Yang Memberi dan Memilikinya..

Biarkan DIA yang mengatur semuanya hingga keindahan itu datang pada waktunya..

"Barangsiapa yang menjaga kehormatan orang lain, pasti kehormatan dirinya akan terjaga ."

~Umar Bin Khattab ra~

Secebis kisah Saidina Ali dan Saidatina Fatimah Az-Zahra..

Usai mereka bernikah..
Fatimah ada mengatakan kepada suaminya (Saidina Ali)..
"Kanda..dulu, adinda ada mengagumi seorang lelaki..
Dan adinda ingin sentiasa bersamanya.."
Maka jawab Saidina Ali:
"Adakah adinda menyesal kerana telah berkahwin dengan kekanda?"
Maka jawab Fatimah:
"Tidak..kerana insan yg dinda kagumi itu adalah kanda.."

P/s:

Tidak salah bukan untuk mencintai..
Biarlah hanya sekadar dalam diam..
Biarlah hanya dari kejauhan...
Biarlah menjadi rahsia hamba dan Tuhannya...
Semoga rahmat Allah menaungi kita selalu..

Selamat beramal..

Wallahualam... =)

Allah tak adil?

2011-06-02T05:07:00.000-07:00

Ini kisah benar..kisah seorang gadis Melayu, beragama Islam, tapi cetek pengetahuan tentang agama. Ceritanya begini, di sebuah negeri yang melaksanakan dasar ‘Membangun Bersama Islam’, kerap kali pihak berkuasa tempatan menjalankan pemeriksaan mengejut di premis-premis perniagaan dan kompleks beli-belah, untuk memastikan para pekerja di premis berkenaan menutup aurat.

Aku tak pasti berapa jumlah denda yang dikenakan sekiranya didapati melakukan kesalahan, tapi selalunya mereka akan diberi amaran bagi kesalahan pertama, dan didenda jika didapati masih enggan mematuhi garis panduan yang ditetapkan. Lazimnya dalam setiap operasi sebegini, seorang ustaz ditugaskan bersama dengan para pegawai pihak berkuasa tempatan. Tugasnya adalah untuk menyampaikan nasihat secara berhemah, kerana hukuman dan denda semata-mata tidak mampu memberi kesan yang mendalam.

Dalam satu insiden, ketika operasi yang dijalankan sekitar 2005, seorang gadis yang bekerja di salah satu lot premis perniagaan di Pasaraya Billion telah didapati melakukan kesalahan tidak menutup aurat. Maka dia pun kena denda la…setelah surat saman dihulurkan oleh pegawai PBT, ustaz ni pun bagi la nasihat, “..lepas ni diharap saudari insaf dan dapat mematuhi peraturan..peraturan ni bukan semata-mata peraturan majlis perbandaran, tapi menutup aurat ni termasuk perintah Allah. Ringkasnya, kalau taat segala perintahNya, pasti Dia akan membalas dengan nikmat di syurga..kalau derhaka tak nak patuhi perintahNya,takut nanti tak sempat bertaubat, bakal mendapat azab di neraka Allah. Tuhan Maha Penyayang, Dia sendiri tak mahu kita campakkan diri ke dalam neraka…”

Gadis tersebut yang dari awal mendiamkan diri,tiba-tiba membentak “Kalau Tuhan tu betul-betul baik, kenapa buat neraka? Kenapa tak boleh sediakan syurga je? Macam tu ke Tuhan Maha Penyayang?” Mungkin dari tadi dia dah panas telinga, tak tahan dengar nasihat ustaz tu..dah la hati panas kena denda sebab dia tak pakai tudung..

Ustaz tu terkedu sekejap. Bahaya budak ni. Kalau dibiarkan boleh rosak akidah dia. Setelah habis gadis tu membebel, ustaz tu pun jawab: “Dik, kalau Tuhan tak buat neraka, saya tak jadi ustaz. Berapa sen sangat gaji saya sekarang. Baik saya jadi tokey judi, atau bapa ayam.. hidup senang, lepas mati pun tak risau sebab gerenti masuk syurga. Mungkin awak ni pun saya boleh culik dan jual jadi pelacur. Kalau awak nak lari, saya bunuh je. Takpe, sebab neraka tak ada. Nanti kita berdua jumpa lagi kat syurga..Kan Tuhan tu baik?”

Gadis tu terkejut. Tergamak seorang ustaz cakap macam tu? Sedang dia terpinga-pinga dengan muka confused, ustaz tu pun jelaskan: “Perkara macam tadi akan berlaku kalau Tuhan hanya sediakan syurga. Orang baik, orang jahat, semua masuk syurga..maka apa guna jadi orang baik? Jadi orang jahat lebih seronok. Manusia tak perlu lagi diuji sebab semua orang akan ‘lulus’ percuma. Pembunuh akan jumpa orang yang dibunuh dalam syurga..perogol akan bertemu lagi dengan mangsa rogol disyurga..lepas tu boleh rogol lagi kalau dia nak..takde siapa yang terima hukuman. Sebab Tuhan itu ‘baik’. Adakah Tuhan macam ni yang kita nak? Awak rasa, adil ke?”; tanya ustaz.

“Ah..mana adil macam tu. Orang jahat takkan la terlepas camtu je..” rungut si gadis.

Ustaz tersenyum dan menyoal lagi: “Bila tuhan tak adil, boleh ke dianggap baik?”

Gadis tu terdiam.

Ustaz mengakhiri kata-katanya: “Adik, saya bagi nasihat ni kerana kasih sesama umat Islam. Allah itu Maha Penyayang, tapi Dia juga Maha Adil. Sebab tu neraka perlu wujud. Untuk menghukum hamba-hambaNya yang derhaka, yang menzalimi diri sendiri dan juga orang lain. Saya rasa awak dah faham sekarang. Kita sedang diuji kat atas dunia ni. Jasad kita bahkan segala-galanya milik Allah, maka bukan HAK kita untuk berpakaian sesuka hati kita. Ingatlah; semuanya dipinjamkan olehNya, sebagai amanah dan ujian..semoga kita dapat bersabar dalam mentaati segala perintahNya, untuk kebaikan diri kita jugak. Assalamu’alaikum.”

Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Adil!

ps:nak sangat pegi seoul garden tapi takde kawan!

The 4th week of holiday

2011-05-22T21:24:00.000-07:00

bila bangun pagi (lewat)..tengok katil sebelah dah takde orang..bantal dan selimut dah berkemas..

pegi bilik sebelah, bantal dan selimut tak terusik..

rumah senyap sunyi..

turun bawah sarapan dah tersedia tapi tetap tak terusik..

tengok luar motor LC masih di situ..

kereta honda tiada di tempatnye..

barulah tersedar,,beginilah kehidupan yang bakal dilalui untuk minggu2 seterusnya sampai bukak sem baru.. *sigh

inilah keadaannya bila cik bakal dokter gigi dah start wat posting kat cahaya suria..

encik bakal engineer da start belajar di uniten setelah 5bulan tanam jagung kat rumah..

tinggal lah cik bakal dokter sorang2 kat rumah sambung tanam jagung,ternak lemak dan kebosanan..haih

bosannya takde teman tonton wayang dan window shopping..

takde teman makan tengahari..

takde teman gaduh..

takde teman gelak ketawa...

wahhhh!!!

pengsan2...

abah> da dekat sebulan cuti..watpe jek?

em,,

minggu 1: qada' tdo..btul! kalo bole taknak bangun langsung

minggu 2: tengok wayang..sape lagi kalo bukan dengan encik rugby tu,,2-3 movies..

minggu 3: shopping di low yat. superb! + kemas bilik buku yang tak selesai lagi

minggu 4: da stat bosan..

me> ma,,,bole tak iman nak keje kat gift shop kat OU,,from 10 am-10 pm,basic gaji rm1000?

mama> pegilaaa,,,daripada makan je kat rumah wat abes beras..tapi 50-50 gaji tu dengan mama.

abah> nope!

me> plerghhhhh....nape...?

abah> jauh...

me> fine,,,,ma,kat ICU takde keje kosong ke?

mama> ade,,jd despatch girl. nak?

me> oke! gaji?

mama> atas ihsan mama..

me> no thx! mesti tak dapat gaji langsung nanti,,baik abeskan beras kat rumah..tapi bile kte nak gi holiday ni.....bosan sangat dah ni..

mama> kak piqah dengan aimi takde..kene pikir banyak kali dulu before gi holiday.....

me> fine..................................

this is it. me dan laptop dan bantal yang empuk bersama2 KBS world for another 3 months..except kalo cik bakal dokter gigi yang busy posting buli cik bakal dokter yang menganggur kat rumah hantar dan jemput beliau di LRT.setiap hari...bagi gaji tuk driver takpe jugak.huhu

ps: gudluck tuk aimi yang da stat belajar. senang je kot nak jadi engineer, haha berusaha! i'll pray for u insyaAllah! besides, u can fulfill half of my dreams,,saya nak title IR jugak!! huuuuuu~

pss: saje wat post kaler warna-warni..bosan sangat dah ni!

next? sambung kemas buku buku buku buku....dan! lebihkan melompat lagi! hehe doakan saya unnie! btw,unnie2,,cepat update pasal kundasang! tak sabar ni! weeeee ^^

perempuan

2011-05-20T01:24:00.000-07:00

siapa kata jadi perempuan tu senang?

nak kena tutup sana, tutup sini

tengok budak lelaki, pakai baju pagoda pon orang x bising

perempuan, stoking pon kena pakai

cuba suruh budak lelaki jadi perempuan satu hari

komfem x tahan bertutup semua

tapi, perempuan cool jek

tengah panas pon boleh lagi pakai jubah, hebat kan perempuan?

siapa kata jadi perempuan tu senang?

tiap2 bulan, mesti ada penyakit

nak pergi kelas pon susah

kalau boleh, masa tengah jalan tu nak jek meraung sbb sakit

cuba tengok budak lelaki , selamber jek

kadang2 setahun sekali pon susah nak dapat sakit

tapi, perempuan hidup berpuluh2 tahun dgn penyakit tiap2 bulan, survive jek

tengah2 sakit pon boleh senyum lagi sampai orang pon x perasan yg dia sakit

hebat kan perempuan?

siapa kata jadi perempuan tu senang?

hati ni Allah jadikan lembut betul

cepat jek sensitif

cuba tengok orang putus cinta

selalu perempuan yg paling susah nak lupa

lelaki lepas putus cinta cepat jek pasang baru

cuba pergi wayang tengok cerita hindustan

siapa yg paling teruk menangis?

perempuan kan?lelaki boleh gelak2 lagi

lembut tak lembut hati perempuan

tapi dengan hati yg lembut tu perempuan dapat mengkagumkan lelaki

hebat tak perempuan?

disebabkan susahnya nak jadik perempuan ni lah, ramai perempuan yg merajuk dengan Allah

diorang cakap, Allah x adil

kenapa Allah lebihkan lelaki?

kenapa perempuan kena dengar cakap suami?

kenapa syurga perempuan terletak di bawah kaki suami?

padahal jadi perempuan tu sangatlah susah

bak kata orang, nak jaga 10 anak lelaki, x susah macam nak jaga sorang anak perempuan

dan disebabkan perasaan negatif dekat Allah ni, ramai perempuan2 kat luar sana yg rebel

diorang pakai pakaian yg tidak menutup aurat dengan alasan, 'lelaki x payah tutup pon'

diorang berani bertepuk tampar dengan lelaki

diorang sanggup gadaikan diri diorang sbb percaya dengan janji manis kekasih yg busuk hati

kesian kan kat diorang?

disebabkan fikiran yg negatif terhadap Allah, diorang sanggup rosakkan diri diorang

diorang cakap diorang buat macam tu sbb Allah x adil

persoalannya sekarang

betul ke Allah x adil dengan perempuan?

betul, syurga perempuan terletak di bawah kaki suami

tapi, cuba ingat balik, syurga seorang anak lelaki terletak di bawah kaki siapa kalau bukan kaki ibunya?

betul, isteri kena ikut cakap suami

tapi, seorang anak lelaki kena taat pada ibunya 3 kali lebih utama daripada ayahnya

x adil lagikah Allah pada perempuan?

Allah bukan setakat adil, tapi Allah tu sangat sayang kat perempuan

untuk lelaki, syurga isterinya terletak di bawah kakinya

kalau paling banyak dia ada 4 orang isteri

cuma ada 4 orang yg syurganya bergantung pada seorang lelaki tu

tapi perempuan, ditakdirkan ada 15 orang anak lelaki

bermakna ada 15 orang yg syurganya terletak pada seorang perempuan tu

mashaAllah, hebatnya perempuan kan?

kenapa perempuan hebat?sebab kasih sayang Allah yg jadikan kita hebat

cuba dengar pula lagu2 yg berkumandang dekat radio

banyak lagu pasal perempuan kan?

contohnya macam lagu SUMAIYYAH,

jarang kita dengar lagu pasal lelaki

sayang x sayang Allah tu dekat perempuan, sampai perempuan dikasihi macam tu sekali dekat dunia

tengok pula, bila seorang lelaki berjaya

orang akan cakap

'disebalik kejayaan seorang lelaki terdapat seorang perempuan di belakangnya'

kita x pernah dengar orang cakap

'disebalik kejayaan seorang perempuan terdapat seorang lelaki di belakangnya'

kan?hebat x Allah jadikan perempuan tu?

masih x adil lagikah Allah dekat perempuan?

Allah sebenarnya terlampau adil dekat perempuan

sampaikan disebabkan susahnya nak jadi perempuan ni

perempuan senang nak masuk syurga

tengok hadis ni

"Apabila seorang perempuan mendirikan sembahyang lima waktu, berpuasa sebulan (Ramadhan), menjaga kehormatan dan taat kepada suami, dia akan disuruh memasuki syurga melalui mana-mana pintu yang dia sukai."

(Hadis Riwayat Ahmad)

x adil lagikah Allah dekat perempuan?

oh perempuan, sedarlah

betapa sayangnya Allah dekat kita

betapa cintanya Allah dekat kita

tapi, kenapa kita nak rosakkan diri kita kerana fikiran2 negatif yg x berasas dekat Allah?

Allah jadikan perempuan tu sebagai hiasan dunia

bayang, dunia yg besar ni, dunia yg cantik ni, kita jadi hiasan

dan seindah2 hiasan tu adalah wanita solehah

kesiannya dekat kita kalau kita tolak untuk jadi seindah hiasan kan?

sumber: Persatuan Alumni Pelajar Islam Sekolah Berasrama Penuh Malaysia (APIS)

nota kaki:sama-sama lah kita semua ambil iktibar wahai perempuan2 diluar sana.

formspring.me

2011-05-16T23:34:00.001-07:00

juz ask! http://formspring.me/aimangugu

So......conditional?

2011-05-15T08:16:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum..

Ever thought of love? Ever fallen in love? Ever experienced love? Everyone needs it, I'm sure.
What is done to consider yourself being loved?

Ever seen a fanatic follower of a famous artist? Believe me, they really are fanatic. They thought of themselves as a faithful fan. Try to memorize lyrics, know the artist's whereabouts, know the size of his shirt..
Blergh, maniacs.

Fans love their artists as they claim it would be. Eventhough that famous celebrity doesn't even KNOW them. Can I say that to be unconditional?

Whatever,
"cintakan bunga, bunga kan layu. Cintakan manusia, manusia kan pergi"
True huh?

We say we love Allah. We try to follow His way. We want to love Him and Him only.
But what if, Allah did not create heaven and hell. Will we do what He instructed us to do in the Quran?
Will we love Him as He is. Love Him because He is Allah?

If we do, that's true love.
And true love is unconditional.

peringatan kepada diri sendiri juga...

nota kaki : next stop>>PAHANG.dreams come true!

tag

2011-05-09T04:57:00.000-07:00

act, tga scroll down cik hanan punyer blog. lama sgt sgt x blog walking kt mtcik ni punyer page. smpi dy private pon sy xtw..huhu. naseb bole sign in. ko ade invite ak eh nan?^^
dy tag sy end of last year. da dkat half of year.huuuuu~ oke, akibat bosan sy nk jugak wat bnde tagging tagging ni.muahahahaha

apa benda paling penting dalam hidup korang?

byk sgt!sgt! smpi ble2 x abes cte nti..

benda yg terakhir korang beli guna duit korang?
ice lemon tea.

di mana tempat korang langsungkn perkahwinan korang?

not yet married.ngeh

adakah korang sedang bercinta sekarang?

yeap.

berapa lama korang akan mencintai kekasih korang?

insyaAllah now n forever till hereafter.

di mana korang selalu jumpa kekasih korang?

=,=

novel/buku/majalah terakhir korang beli?

contengan jalanan by hlovate.

apakah nama penuh korang?

sejibik cm dlm IC n surat beranak.^^

antara mak n ayah mana paling rapat?

ayah.saya anak ayah! proud to be one. hehe

namakan org betul2 korang nak jumpa dalam hidup korang?

lotssssssssssssssss.....ssssss

adakah korang basuh baju korang sendiri?

kt rumah ke? nope. mesin basuh laaa.haha

tempat yg betul-betul korang nak pergi?

lotssss. sume soalan perlu jwpn lotssssss cmne nih.haih.

pilih salah satu, peluk atau ciuman?

hug.

bagitau 3 benda orang yang bagi kamu tag

1 jelaa..sy amat rndu dye!

benda yang paling disayangi dalam hidup korang

see? jwpnnye lotssss lg. haha

lagu yang paling korang suka dengar?

top 25 in my ipod list.he3

bila tarikh lahir korang dan tempat selalu korang sambut?

061290..byk sgt tempat laa..cm every yr tmpt laen2..

list 5 org kene tag
unnie zt,zwen,DD,awak n awak yg tga bc ni!

nota kaki> xbeli fon lagi! T_T

KL-penang-KL-melaka-KL

2011-05-05T04:25:00.000-07:00

lepas habis PRO n FINAL EXAM+RESULT..alhamdulillah. be grateful 4 everything which has been planned by Him. alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..after exam madkhal,shoot trus g penang..berdua je dgn abah. berdua kn lebih baik.haha. ade org ckp romantik..romantik ape,berdentam dentum lagu2 deep purple dgn pajero yg baru pasang speaker. haih. tp berbaloi 4 jam pegi penang, dapatlaa tips2 nk cari sponsor tuk trip afte 3rd yr. xsbrnye xsbrnye! huuuuuuiii~~ smpi penang,,2nd bridge of penang da 50% siap,iA by nxt yr da siap laaa..and xsabar nk tengok sea tunnel pulak nk wat kt penang afte 2nd bridge siap...penang maju! huhu

da next day, as planned..3 kereta (14 girls) shoot g melaka..kalo pkir2 blik tak percya kot dr GV smpi merlimau yg da nk dekat2 sempadan melaka-johor tu dlm ms xsmpi sejam setengah..kalo abah tau ni..matilaa sy! mane tak nyer..cik tan lead,mmg ikot lane kanan laa memanjang..120?140?15...0?perghhhh...melayang viva! jgn tiru aksi ini di rumah..^^

1st stop>> rumah dijat (merlimau)..had a late breakfast. nasi lemak melaka bak kata dijat. mak dia sgt baik! kami jumpa iman, amal n 'ilmu'. cm visi misi sekolah je. haha then dijat jd tour guide tak bertauliah tnjuk homestay ktorg, tmpt mkn ikan bakar plg sedap kononnya kt melaka+SMKA sharifah rodziah yg amat di canang2 kn oleh dijat..huhu smpilaaa kt A Famosa Waterpark...

kereta tour guide

rumah dijat

2nd stop>> A Famosa Waterpark. dari pukul 1 smpai pukul 6. kecut jari jemari semua. ni akibat atin nyer misi laa nk sedut air kt waterpark bwk blik GV. haha tp pening laaa lame2 kt ctu tgk bnde2 lagho..haih mmg mengucap byk2 laa..pastu plan lak nk g waterworld esok nyer. saya n da geng mmg agkat bendera putih siap2 laaa..lebih relaa penat shopping dari penat berendam lame2 dlm air n tgk bnde2 yg xptut tgk..huhu after isya' check in kt homestay yg amat-sgt-memuaskan hati. RM150 jek satu malam! bole dtg lg len kali ni..then masa yg ditunggu2..IKAN BAKAR! waaaa...berpuas hati jugaklaaa drive all da way from KL to melaka semata2 nk mkn ikan bakar..two thumbs up!

3rd stop>> banda hilir. as usual, dataran pahlawan..A famosa dr jauh je.hi3..mahkota parade. menara taming sari..segala mcm bgunan bersejarah yg da dtg tgk ms kcik2 dolu2.so tgk dr jauh jek yek..^^

belakang tu menara taming sari~

4th stop>> rumah ummu (masjid tanah). ni mmg trip luar biasa dpt berkunjung ke rumah ummu. cm mimpi jd kenyataan..dulu2 plan je,,akhirnya..tp kalo dpt semua 30 org pegi lg best!
ayah ummu kata mkn byk2, nk jln jauh..jd? kami mmg mkn amat byk kt rumah ummu before blik KL. thx ummu!

rumah ummu

gerak dlam pukul 6, smpi dekat pukul 8..okei laaa tu sbb hujan lebat. penat mmg penat. drive sorang2, sbb yg laen2 dlm kereta mmg buat taik mata termasuklah co-pilot yg mmg tak bertauliah. haih.

so,,,4 bulan..4 bulan beb! nk wtpe ni..hailaaa...tp ade misi n visi yg perlu dijalankan! berusaha! haha

nota jari kaki:
> hepi besday cik noor afiqah 050588! sweet 23~~ cepat carikan saya abg ipar! haha
>unnie..tetbe cm nk panjat broga hill..tp awak jauh! T_T

three words to sum up life ; it goes on.

2011-04-27T00:32:00.000-07:00

" shit happens. people change.
your best friend can become your worst enemy.

you will fall to pieces, and wish you never existed.

you'll fall in love, you'll fall out of love. he'll break your heart.

you argue, you cry yourself to sleep.

some days, you cant drag yourself out of bed.

but things will get better. everytime u fall down you get back up.
you grow up a lil more with each mistake. life goes on. "

24.04.11

2011-04-23T09:14:00.000-07:00

"Let others lead small lives, but not you.

Let others argue over small things, but not you.

Let others cry over small hurts, but not you.

Let others leave their future in someone else's hands, but not you"

-Jim Rohn-

The major value in life is not what you get.

It is what you've become.

So this is my story.

It could be yours too.

juz a picta.

ps: Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. O Allah, thank you 4 everything.

pss: GDLuck to all my seniors ( 1st batch of fpsk USiM ) for ur final professional exam. bittaufiQ wannajah!

10 days left.

2011-03-30T09:28:00.000-07:00

"......Barangsiapa bertaqwa kepada Allah, nescaya Dia akan membukakan jalan keluar bagiNya, dan Dia memeberinya rezeki dari arah yang tidak disangka-sangkanya. Dan barangsiapa bertawakkal kepada Allah, nescaya Allah akan mencukupkan (keperluan)nya. Sesungguhnya Allah melaksanakan urusanNya. Sungguh, Allah telah mengadakan ketentuan bagi setiap sesuatu" -[Surah At-Talaq,65:2-3].

regards: gugu

ps: another 10 days left for my 1st pro-exam. may Allah ease everything, insyaAllah!

sometimes....

2011-03-18T21:12:00.000-07:00

I just feel, very left out. I try to fit in, but in the end its harder to be amongst others than to be alone.

30 days left.

2011-03-10T08:45:00.000-08:00

I learnt from the hard way to the way I can smile because I'm over it. Life was so hard at first. All the learning processes couldn't be even meaner, but heyyyy told ya right? Don't give up, and have faith! All the hardships will finally make sense.

Glad that in a way, I learnt that on my own, through my own observations, and by own efforts. also true, I am becoming stronger with you and everyone's support :)

Hardship is the only the beginning to a happy life. You won't learn it if you don't make mistakes. Life is hard man, but He's with us! :)

Remember readers,
BE GRATEFUL (say Alhamdulillah) and STAY STRONG!
NEVER GIVE UP and HAVE FAITH ....... In yourself and also in Allah :)

regards,
gugu

2011-03-10T08:42:00.001-08:00

30 days left.

2011-03-10T08:13:00.000-08:00

Salam..

50 hari....40 hari.....Ya Allah...tinggal 30 hari je lagi....

Cepatnyer masa berlalu meningalkan kita...

Baru sekarang terasa masa amat pantas berlalu..

Kalau sekarang saya sanggup balik 2 miggu sekali walaupun rumah sekangkang kera je dari GV..

Cik Wa sanggup tak balik rumah weekend semata2 nak menelaah..

Setiap petang masing2 buat studi grup..

Dan yang paling penting bila anda melihat cik DD mengusung encik guyton ke hulu ke hilir..

Maka amat pasti bahawa pro-exam tinggal lagi sebulan....

Huuuuu~ haru...haru..

Dan akhirnya......................yang di tunggu2 telah datang..

Jadual 1st pro-exam

Baru je isnin lepas berangan2 nak hantar memorandum kat prof Nik terchenta supaya extent studi week dari seminggu jadi sebulan ke..yelaaaaa,memandangkan cuti panjang 4 bulan kan...haih

Angan2 jelaaaa...

Masa ada lagi sebulan..sempat lagi kawan2....

better late than never laaa orang cakap kan..

ye! Berusaha+doa+tawakkal=insyaAllah adalaaa hasilnya nanti..

jangan doa untuk diri sendiri jek..doa laaa untuk yang lain2. iA lebih dimakbulkan doa kita..

GANBATTE GEN 05!

ps:credit to chan for da picta. saya curik kat blog dye! huhu

pss: dear readers, pls..do pray for us to0.

psss: mengantuk itu sifat manusia, jangan melawan fitrah alam! peace :DD

꿈의 높이 ! (40 days left)

2011-03-01T09:15:00.000-08:00

I Dream High, i dream, when its hard i close my eyes

While i imagine that moment i get up

I shake at the end of fear

Afraid of falling like a baby bird who cant fly up

Can I do it, will my dream come true

one by one my walking goes when i get afraid

I Dream High, I dream, when im tired i close my eyes

I keep imagining that dream while i get up

I can fly high, i belive that i can go up in that sky

Open my wings, fly freely up more then anyone

I need courage that will stand the fallen me

I dust the dust, Courage that will stand me and jump once a again

Belive in myself once more, Belive in my faith

Bet everything, and im going to jump a wall taller than me

I dream high, i dream, when im tired i close my eyes

Imagening that my dream will come true while i (again) get up

I can fly high i belive in that i will go up in that sky

Open my wings and (i'm) going to fly more freely than anyone has

Dream high a chance to fly high

Bye bye to the hurts

Fly high like the stars in the sky

Open your dreams, time for you to shine

Starting Now, gotta make em mine

Dont be afraid of the future in you hands, walk in confidence now

You can't stop destiny now

Whole new fantasy is open in front of your eyes

So hold my hand now

Our stop is the same now, dont give up on your dreams

When your young dream high everyone

I dream high, I dream, when im tired i close my eyes

Imagine the dream coming true while getting up

I can fly high, i belive that i can go up that sky

Open my wings and fly high freely than anyone else

formspring.me

2011-02-28T05:57:00.001-08:00

juz ask! http://formspring.me/aimangugu

50 days more to go.

2011-02-18T11:37:00.000-08:00

Looking far away
My dreams become fuzzy, I'm standing lost
I have nothing now
Although I want to give it all up and start anew
Though I want to give up, I will stand up again
Let's move carefully, step by step
Filled with excitement and fear

Don't tell me that it will end just like that?
Although my hesitation is caused by fear
Deep inside my heart
There is an echo that keeps me moving forward
Step by step, I will move forward carefully
Just like what I am doing today
Filled with excitement and fear

Even if I stumble and fall, I will still move
One step forward
When will I face my dream?
Step by step, I will move forward carefully
Just like today
Filled with with excitement and fear
Eventhough staggering and swaying, I will take that step
When will we meet?
I'm looking torwards my dream
When can we meet?
I look torwards my dream.

ps: 50 days more to go.still counting and counting.......

Live on!

2011-02-06T08:33:00.000-08:00

"Believe and Act as if it were impossible to fail.."

"If You can Dream it,
You can Do it.."

"When odds are One in a million,
be that One.."

"First say to yourself what you would be;
and then do what you have to do.."

"When you feel like giving up,
remember why you held on for so long in the first place.."

"Above all, challenge yourself!
You may well surprise yourself at what strength you have,
what you can accomplish.."

I am blind

2011-02-01T19:34:00.000-08:00

A young blind girl, too young to be worrying about things that matter, placed herself strategically by the foot of the escalators going up from the train platforms. A battered plastic bag lay beside her feet and she held up a sign which said : "I am blind, please help"

A man walked by. Despite the morning rush, he stepped aside unhesitatingly, fished his pockets for coins and dropped them into the bag. Strangely, instead of returning to the crowd, he took the sign, turned it around, and wrote something else. He then handed back the sign with the new words to the blind girl.

Soon the hat began to fill up. A lot more people were giving money to the blind girl. At the end of the day, the man who had changed the sign came to see how things were keeping up with the girl he encountered earlier that morning. The girl recognized his footsteps and asked, "Were you the one who changed my sign this morning? What did you write?"

The man said, "I only wrote the truth. I said what you said but in a different way."

What he had written was: "Today is a beautiful day and I cannot see it."

Dear friends,
The first sign merely stated that the girl is blind. The second sign told people they were so lucky that they were not blind and presented them with many more reasons to search within themselves for the things that they should be grateful to God for.

Don't put off gratitude, for the time to express it may not be ample.

Skip this kalau allergic love love.

2011-01-24T23:12:00.000-08:00

So self absorbed in my ways today, I almost missed at a chance that comes by pretty seldom. I saw love. Growing up under the HEAVY influence of princesses and knights in shining armor, I quickly was also in pursuit of 'happily ever after' for all the princesses in their pretty dresses ended up in a beautiful place somewhere somehow with their prince charmings.

Fifteen years down the road, with all the relationship problems of the 'real world', our minds our now flooded with the down sides of relationships. The 'happily ever afters' are, sadly, no longer attached to love stories.

Today, I saw love. This was the 'eternal' kind of love that I was a witness to. The kind of love that proves that maybe, just maybe, fairy tales do come true. This is the kind of love that is rarely witnessed and many times overlooked.

I couldn't help but smile as I watched a couple, well into their 70's I assume, as they sat comfortably on the train, side by side. They talked of things that made no sense, yet to them, they made perfect sense (Not like I understood the things they were talking about anyway). Moments later, both dozed off into a peaceful nap as they held each other's hand. And like clock work, they later woke up nearly at the same time. They sat there, content on just being together, side by side.

They sat in silence, no words needed. Just the re-assurance of being together, holding hands. She looked over at him, he winked, causing her to smile as a hint of pink rose crept into her pale, withered cheeks. The look in their eyes as they exchanged glances clearly spoke of the love they had for one another. She then reached into her bag and pulled out half a bun and further halved that and handed one half to the old man. As they sat enjoying their bread in a near unison rhythm, I witnessed him give her hand a tender squeeze.

Then, no words exchanged, the two, still hand in hand, dozed off again into a peaceful nap.

Tenderness. Togetherness. Understanding. The ability to be content side by side. That is what it's mainly about. Love is still remembered, even when other memories are far from the mind. This love I seen today, was one of the more beautiful love I have yet to witness. (never more than one's love for Him though haha).

The heart was beautifully crafted to hold the kind of love that is built around forever. I hope to be old and grey, sitting beside my true love, being content to just hold his hand. To need no words and to know by the look in his eye and tender squeeze of his hand that he still loves me and finds pleasure in being by my side after all the years have passed.

Aiyak so mushy pulak. I might muntah at my own post. HAHA.

So friends, the moral of the story is... don't put your music on MAX and pretend that you are some hotshot rockstar while discretely banging on your imaginary guitar while tapping kaki loud-loud sampai makcik sebelah buat bunyi 'tsk tsk' and tarik beg plastik die kuat-kuat nak tunjuk annoyed.

My mouth; it moves, and the words come out

My ears; they hear, and the words come in

My eyes; they see, and the people all around

My legs; they walk me, here and there

My arms; they move, to and fro

My heart; it beats, but it goes unheard.
And that, is it.

edit: on a second thought, nahhhhhhhhhh..... I'm fine ;)

How long must we wait, in this cruel winter fate
To see one flower bloom, to have sunlight in every room?

So we can have toast, what a spread to boast
Along with jam and tea, oh my how happy I will be.

:)

17 jan 1990 ++ frenSs~

2011-01-17T02:56:00.000-08:00

salam. oke.post kali ni serabut.caca marba.rojak. senanyer nk wt special post tuk da birthday girl.tetbe cm tgk blik gamba dulu2..so upload laa skali.. ;DD jgn pnig2 ye..peace ^^v

the birthday girl,,cik hanan@miss korea.haha

sape rase ni tgn dy??angkt kaki!!

tyme2 sengal mmg cmni :)

gmba kontroversi.huuuu~

ukhwah yang terbina persis sekuntum bunga
meskipun kini kita terpisah demi kasih-Nya
namun cebisan kenangan kita
sentiasa bermain di bayangan mata
detik waktu yang berlalu
menjadi memori kau dan aku

sewaktu kita bersama
saling setia menimba ilmu
tanpa mengenal erti penat jemu
ingatkah kau lagi

kita bersama memijak onak duri
di tanah gersang mengutip semangat suci
kini segalanya tersemat dalam sanubari

bersabarlah dengan ketentuan-Nya
ada rahmat yang tersembunyi
bertemu berpisah kerana Allah
lumrah kehidupan insan beriman

moga saat nan indah
ku harap berulang lagi.

dis is us.
forever remains together.
tQ my fren.
imy.
ily.

HB!

2011-01-15T20:08:00.000-08:00

Dear Mama,

There are many things I need to say to you but I think you'd understand me best when I say that my essential nature simply renders me speechless. It simply aches me to not be home during your birthday this year. No more scaring you and abah with my supposedly reckless driving. No more fat kids to punch and bully around and no more Aimi to follow me around in hopes of scoring kitty snacks and a good old scratch. All I have to fill the void right now is this space and our time together - which we haven't been having a lot of. :(

For years I've grown, spending little time away from you (literally) and it just makes separation harder as the years go by and the thought of heading my own life without you to fall on really scares me.

As the years go by, your advices have changed, moulding itself to suit my current state of life though one thing stays the same: It is always because you love me. At times, it may seem like I disagree with some of them, but time has always proven that everything you say bear a significant amount of truth. Regret is the only thing I feel during the times my illogical pertinacity got the best of me.

The front I have always presented to you has always been one that is strong, independent and unbending. Its mostly for the girls and also the fact that you and abah have always deemed me so. But the tears I shed at this very moment only goes to show that I am no far different from the average person and your expectations of me has only helped made me who I am today.

A quarter way in through my life expectancy, I am sad that the days we have are numbered. I regret the lack of appreciation and also all the time we've lost. I can't wait to be back :)

Happy Birthday Mama,

I love you :)

you decide.

2011-01-14T01:31:00.000-08:00

viva vs eye shadow

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scene 1

venue:musolla
date:2 years back

ms D: awk pki eyeshadow ke?
ms G: yup!
ms D: ye?!
ms G: iye....
ms D:
ms G: eiiii..bdak kcik ni nk kene dgn ak. wt gapo pki ayeshadow g kls..eh3

scene 2

venue: lecture hall ar-Razi
date: couples week ago

mr X: gu...nti kn bla bla bla..bla..blaaaa..
ms G: aah. nti ko bla bla blaaaaaa....
mr X: o0oo ye..nti ko bg kt ak eh bnde tu..jap. ko pki eyeshadow eh g kls?
ms G: mestilaaa x! dush3x

scene 3

venue:front of lift at level 6
date: few days ago

mr U: sori.did u put on eye shadow?
ms G: mamat mane lak ni..dh laaa xknl..serabut gle..nope!
mr U: oke....

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scene 1

ms T: npe paking tgkt 6?kn kene byr rm1..bazir jek. baik paking kt tgkt8. free..dekat lak tu..
ms G: alaaa...sehengget jek. agpon xnk viva ni kene pns..nti dy makin itam.
ms T: baek....

scene 2

ms G: see...kn senang paking tgkt 6,ade bumbung..tyme2 ujan cni xya laa redah ujan nk masuk kete cm kt tgkt 8...
ms Y: yelaaa..ujan air je p0n..
ms G: ujan air p0n..kn bg kte senang keje. lgpon..xla viva dmam kene ujan..:D
ms Y: xpasal...

scene 3

abah: npe paking atas.paking jelaa dpn lobi tu..kn senang nmpk..guard pon ade...
ms G: rm3 kot kene byr...
abah: rm3 jek...keselamatan penting..
ms G: selamat ape..kalo viva tu kene culik cne...?
abah: nk kene ni...
ms G: haha

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konklusi?
1) realiti-->sy TIDAK pakai eyeshadow.ulang.TIDAK.sila jgn tnye lg kalo xnk kene flying kick dgn sy..kalo anda lihat panda naturally ada eyeshadow kaler itam keliling mata dy,sy pula NATURALLY ada eyeshadow kaler pink+oren keliling mata sy.sebab> eczema.oke?

2) realiti.ye.sy syg viva sy.don't disturb 'her'.please.

ps:cerita ini bukan rekaan.benar dan sebenar2nya. cuma d ubah suai supaya sesuai jd tatapan semua lapisan masyarakat.watak n nama tiada kaitan dgn yg masih hidup atau yg telah tiada.

pss: sorilaaa entry kali ni bhs rojak.saje2.

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mggu depan mggu exam.sy tahu semua org sedang struggle. menggalas harapan yg sgt tggi. mengharap sesuatu yg trbaek.cuba untuk membuktikan sesuatu.cuba untuk menebus kembali pengalaman pedih yg lalu.saya juga.semua org juga.dan saya bersama anda semua. dan pasti Dia juga bersama kita..rabbi yassir wala tua'ssir.

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mggu ni tidak pulang ke rumahku syurgaku ats nasihat abah walau rumah sekangkang semut dan sebenarnya hati meronta2 mahu pulang rindukan mereka yang tersayang.takpelah.berkorban sesuatu untuk sesuatu yg lebih baik.

abah> reading kuat2.xya blik takpe.cuti kte travel.mama n abah da plan.even after ur pro exam.no worries dear.doa byk2.we're praying 4 u to0.

thanx abah.thanx mama..sebenarnya,selalu tertanya2,pe yg dh sy buat tuk balas jasa mereka.doa?xcukup doa compare doa mereka....sy tahu. air mata mereka yg mengalir kerana kedegilan saya..YA ALLAH..ampunilah dosa2 mereka. tempatkanlah mereka di syurga-Mu ya Allah.
marilah kita muhasabah diri bersama2 sementara mereka masih ada. ye,,sementara mereka masih ade.

ps: abah memang suke ckp bhs rojak. he can even talk in chinese+tamil+jawa n mix them all in one sentences with his totally broken english. but i'm proud wif him. be proud wif ur father to0!

pss: mggu ni muke sofy da x monyok cm last week sbb dy blik umah.huhu

pss: unnie zt! gdluck! kte same2 wt yg trbaek! iA~

**sy xtw pon library da renovate.betapa teruk nyer sy dah lame xg library.haih.

ily!

2011-01-10T08:37:00.000-08:00

"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams"

The never ending smiles, laughters and cries.

of all the surprises and the happiness you gave.

Guess what? The love just grew and never stop.

I am a Person Full with Emotions ;)

notajarijemari:menghitung hari ;D